It’s been a funny old week here this week….
A while ago I wrote a blog on self care and the steps essential to looking after myself. This week is the perfect example of how that goes tits up, haha!
I’ve had the holiday blues for a start. Now I hate having holiday blues…I like to try my best to make a life that I don’t desperately want a holiday from!
It’s not so much about the places we visited or where we stayed, it was the freedom and togetherness that I miss so much.
Just before we went away, I had a sudden urge to de clutter. Now I use the term declutter lightly. I wanted to go through the house like a whirlwind…but I had no energy nor the time…haha!
So off we went on holiday…we stayed in a caravan. I absolutely loved living in the tiny space.
At home, we live on the top floor of an old hall…it is huge, and as much as I try not to hoard stuff, it feels like it takes a lot of stuff to make his old place look homely!
Big old hall…
We lived with four of everything, and only had a small bag of clothes each. I took a bag of toys for Arthur (and me!) that he seemed to play with much better because there wasn’t so many to choose from….
So I was determined to do some decluttering this week, so on Monday I threw myself into it, in no particular order, with boxes and bags randomly piling up around the flat.
I had came home to a load of work to catch up on in the hall too (which I do on an evening).
I think Arthur missed our time away too as he was particularly clingy, so was hard to get things done.
I had stuff to do on Tuesday, visiting family, etc…so was out of the house all day. Wednesday our Home Ed meets started back up again after the summer, and our regular forest school was back on Thursday!
Honestly I am a huge introvert too, a lot of social things drain me, and I need to counterbalance it….
The arrival of Friday morning saw me knee deep in boxes, and an untidy flat…..I hadn’t done any of my usual housework,telling myself I would get rid of the boxes first (still piled up all around)
Also due to me being busy and having lots of lunches on the go with the kids, I hadn’t eaten properly all week.
Dan was due to leave that evening for a weekend of fishing and my sister was arriving Saturday morning with my nieces and nephew to stay, so I needed some organisation…..
Total recipe for disaster!!
Honestly, this is one of those points in the past, that would trigger massive anxiety and depressive feelings. I could feel my heart racing and I needed to get my shit together.
I knew what I needed….
I needed to get some fresh air, I needed to walk in Nature. I needed connection with the kids and not just busyness.
All the boxes were piled up in one place, the housework could wait!
We got dressed (me and the kids) I made a flask of tea and hot chocolate. I stopped for coffee…a latte was needed desperately at this moment…Arthur napped in the car. Ollie went off to the bakery and got us some lunch. Sandwiches and cakes!!
We headed for the forest. Arthur made his way up the hilly woodland so slowly. Ollie stopped to explore every mushroom and bug he came across and it was exactly what we needed, me more than anyone…
We stopped to play with the toys, the kids went off exploring while I snapped some pictures.
We had lunch, I wasn’t impatient, the kids attacked me with long tickly grass, we all laughed lots. Arthur got tired and we had snuggles in the sling.
I went home revived.
We waved daddy off, I made us something to eat. Basic pasta and veg (basic, nourishing and easy to clean up after!) I done basic housework.
The kids were tired from all the fresh air, Arthur went to bed and fell asleep almost instantly.
I sat down an made a mandala. I knitted. I had a cold beer. I watched things about Witches on TV. I drank more tea.
I gathered my thoughts…knew I needed to take more care the next week. There is no rush….Breathe! Take my own bloody self care advice..Haha!
Saturday was much the same…my sister came over, all the tidying would wait until Monday. We went into the woods, Arthur stayed in his pyjamas all day, the kids collected conkers for ages….
Monday I will go back to basics and look after myself. I’ll keep you updated on my decluttering process….
Anyway I’m not sure what the point is to this post…maybe when you need to get your shit together, go to the forest, the sea, just retreat into nature, preferably with some kind of caffeine!
Or more eloquently put…
Off to the forest I go, to lose my mind and find my soul – John Muir
Thanks for reading!
p.s. I’ve written this at 4am on Sunday morning, Arthur hasn’t been very well all night….definitely need my plan of self care in place for the week ahead!